But now she didn't so bye bye eating.
I ran today, not gonna do the strength since I don't eat, no point in it, the mucles would only eat themselves up.
I wish she could have kept her mouth shut and let me eat when I for once wanted to, but no;
"Are you going to eat that after all work you did?"
It was a freaking pancake
"No mother, i'm gonna feed the cat with it, of course!"
Idiot.
But anyways, i'm freezing, so gonna go shower off now, and I just sent a funny text to two people I know is gonna find it hilarious, and then back to christian studygirl studying satanism, LOL
//Lilita Luv <3
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Feeling sick
I just had a banana, so I feel slightly naucious, it feels like I ate something superunhealthy, I know, it's 100 cals in it, but.. it just feels so wrong to eat it....
I did well exercising today tho, I ran more smooth and added an extra bit to my round PLUS that I removed one interwall stopline. I also worked harder with my abs and back and added extra leglifts to my routine, the stretching afterwards felt heavenly until I came to my calfes, I felt like I was killing my legs (probably from the bootcamp I led yesterday, oh god did they sweat! And ask for mercy. And cursed my name. I'm a tough chick.), it was just.. not funny, but after a few minutes the muscles were nice and slim again and the pain was far, far away.
Recently i've been starting to work harder with my makeup, I like trying out these makeups that go a little overboard, a little crazy and freaky, I think it's really fun. I do it as on a regular days basis to, people are in shock of how much makeup I use, LOL. I just feel more attractive that way, and I definitly look it to - me without makeup is like... Something extremley ugly. It's horrible, I swear. I look like a really ugly child.
Foodwise, I do pretty ok;
2 sandwiches
1 glass of o'boy
lunch;
4 sandwiches
3 glasses of milk
dinner;
1 dessertplate of macaronistew
other;
1 banana
3 dl diet coke
2 dl amazing grape sody
not too much, not too little for the amount of exercise I do ^^
I feel good, exept I need to do all these essays and I really need help with it, somebody knows anything about satanism? As in the kind who knows that it's more to it than devilworshiping. Like wiccan. And I need to finish the essay about the political crises in Belgium which is slightly solved now, but I still don't like Leterme on the post after what he said about Vallonians, it's just wrong that the leader of the country shoul hate half of it, god damn it! I passed the test in history about culture, I wrote an essay about the usage of corsets in ballet in the past years, they passed the essay with a little plus, and with my very good grades in dancinghistory I passed the whole course, although I failed two of the essays with the teachers, LOL, but one of the teachers is my classteacher and he knows, he's been reminding me a lot and he knows why, that it isn't just lazyness, so I didn't get the callout of a lifetime at least, LOL, and all the teachers liked my essay so much they decided to pass me, WIIIIE! I feel a lot better about that.
So, what's gonna happen now, i'm about to graduate. I'll probably try to get into the singer/songwrighter program here in my hometown next year, this year.. I don't know, work, I guess. I'd love to work at a kindergarden, but I don't know if i'm good with kids, altho I think it's really cool listening to them, they have imagination to such levels it's just.. Where do they get the energy? LOL! Kids are cool. I'll be little ms cleaninglady this summer at least, it should be ok, I mean, I get paid and mum is going on about "now you're finally gonna learn how to clean!". Newsflash, mum, I never will, LOL. Just when I really try, and you can get me to try hard... for a moneybonus, muahahaha! I'm gonna try to record a few song for the swedish radio artist 2008, the winner gets a challanger spot @ the swedish toplist! I'm probably not gonna go that far, but I can always dream, and people say I have a pretty nice voice.
Ah, that's all for now, ya'll sexy babes <3
//Lillita Luv <3
I did well exercising today tho, I ran more smooth and added an extra bit to my round PLUS that I removed one interwall stopline. I also worked harder with my abs and back and added extra leglifts to my routine, the stretching afterwards felt heavenly until I came to my calfes, I felt like I was killing my legs (probably from the bootcamp I led yesterday, oh god did they sweat! And ask for mercy. And cursed my name. I'm a tough chick.), it was just.. not funny, but after a few minutes the muscles were nice and slim again and the pain was far, far away.
Recently i've been starting to work harder with my makeup, I like trying out these makeups that go a little overboard, a little crazy and freaky, I think it's really fun. I do it as on a regular days basis to, people are in shock of how much makeup I use, LOL. I just feel more attractive that way, and I definitly look it to - me without makeup is like... Something extremley ugly. It's horrible, I swear. I look like a really ugly child.
Foodwise, I do pretty ok;
2 sandwiches
1 glass of o'boy
lunch;
4 sandwiches
3 glasses of milk
dinner;
1 dessertplate of macaronistew
other;
1 banana
3 dl diet coke
2 dl amazing grape sody
not too much, not too little for the amount of exercise I do ^^
I feel good, exept I need to do all these essays and I really need help with it, somebody knows anything about satanism? As in the kind who knows that it's more to it than devilworshiping. Like wiccan. And I need to finish the essay about the political crises in Belgium which is slightly solved now, but I still don't like Leterme on the post after what he said about Vallonians, it's just wrong that the leader of the country shoul hate half of it, god damn it! I passed the test in history about culture, I wrote an essay about the usage of corsets in ballet in the past years, they passed the essay with a little plus, and with my very good grades in dancinghistory I passed the whole course, although I failed two of the essays with the teachers, LOL, but one of the teachers is my classteacher and he knows, he's been reminding me a lot and he knows why, that it isn't just lazyness, so I didn't get the callout of a lifetime at least, LOL, and all the teachers liked my essay so much they decided to pass me, WIIIIE! I feel a lot better about that.
So, what's gonna happen now, i'm about to graduate. I'll probably try to get into the singer/songwrighter program here in my hometown next year, this year.. I don't know, work, I guess. I'd love to work at a kindergarden, but I don't know if i'm good with kids, altho I think it's really cool listening to them, they have imagination to such levels it's just.. Where do they get the energy? LOL! Kids are cool. I'll be little ms cleaninglady this summer at least, it should be ok, I mean, I get paid and mum is going on about "now you're finally gonna learn how to clean!". Newsflash, mum, I never will, LOL. Just when I really try, and you can get me to try hard... for a moneybonus, muahahaha! I'm gonna try to record a few song for the swedish radio artist 2008, the winner gets a challanger spot @ the swedish toplist! I'm probably not gonna go that far, but I can always dream, and people say I have a pretty nice voice.
Ah, that's all for now, ya'll sexy babes <3
//Lillita Luv <3
Monday, May 12, 2008
My running and eating today;
Todays schedual;
3 km round
20 crunches
20 sidecrunches (10 each side)
10 crunches lifting leg
20 straight leg crunches (leg up in the air, 10 each side)
20 "frog" crunches (as I call it, lol)
20 lower ab thingydingy (LOL)
20 modified pushups
around 2 minute of the backexercise I call "bam bam", lol. I don't know what it's called
around 1 minute of the backexercise "the dolphine"
some other back and shoulder exercises
stretching full body
These I did 30 on each side;
leglifts
peeing dog (LOL)
straight legged lift
bent leg toss (no puns or I punch you with my 20 modified pushup arms)
All this took around.. 1½ hour of active time. Nice
My eating was a disaster after the drunken night yesterday, still drunk when I woke up, sooo embarresing. I hate being drunk like that.
4 baby toblerone (3 white, 1 milk)
½ wholemeal sandwitch
1 can RC cola
1/3 0,5 bottle of Ramlösa kaktus (mineralwater)
10 g 70% chocolate
wholemeal crackers
And after working out;
1 tacoroll
1 dl diet coke
2/3 Ramlösa kaktus
Bad day, good with the workout tho
/Lillita Luv <3
3 km round
20 crunches
20 sidecrunches (10 each side)
10 crunches lifting leg
20 straight leg crunches (leg up in the air, 10 each side)
20 "frog" crunches (as I call it, lol)
20 lower ab thingydingy (LOL)
20 modified pushups
around 2 minute of the backexercise I call "bam bam", lol. I don't know what it's called
around 1 minute of the backexercise "the dolphine"
some other back and shoulder exercises
stretching full body
These I did 30 on each side;
leglifts
peeing dog (LOL)
straight legged lift
bent leg toss (no puns or I punch you with my 20 modified pushup arms)
All this took around.. 1½ hour of active time. Nice
My eating was a disaster after the drunken night yesterday, still drunk when I woke up, sooo embarresing. I hate being drunk like that.
4 baby toblerone (3 white, 1 milk)
½ wholemeal sandwitch
1 can RC cola
1/3 0,5 bottle of Ramlösa kaktus (mineralwater)
10 g 70% chocolate
wholemeal crackers
And after working out;
1 tacoroll
1 dl diet coke
2/3 Ramlösa kaktus
Bad day, good with the workout tho
/Lillita Luv <3
3 panicattacks..
It sucks, but it's alright. I just get scared and I get the thoughts back.
My weight is bad again, but the production is over (although I feel like crying my eyes out over it) and I can run again.. and I don't need to eat to keep my energy up, yay! I'm scared of what awaits me though..
My weight is bad again, but the production is over (although I feel like crying my eyes out over it) and I can run again.. and I don't need to eat to keep my energy up, yay! I'm scared of what awaits me though..
Friday, May 2, 2008
4 days off
Feels just amazing, I have 3 (okay, 2 days now) off, no school, no show. It means I can eat normal again and it means I can run again, and it feels better and better. Well, certain amazing people help me with that too <33
I ate an egg and milk.. lots of milk.. I feel a little full and naucious, it's so easy to get full when eating eggs, like it gets stuck halfway down to your stomach.
Today i'm gonna go into the big city near us, woohoo! My cellphone needs to be locked up, so i'm gonna try to get that fixed, or I won't have a cellphone for a longass while. Which would cause massive anger and massive destruction of the Telia store. Yup. Yah.
I started to add some more things to my workout, just a little at a time tho, so I don't get sick of it, I added like 10 more situps.. but not regular, they bore me, plus, it looks wierd after only doing regular, like Fergie's stomach, like the middle part sticks out from the muscles being toned, but the rest isn't.. And I wanna go for completley flat.
/Lillita Luv <3
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Update;
Lunch;
2 bananas
1 blueberry/raspberry smoothie
Dinner;
150 g tomatoe/mozarella pie
and the regular 3 km running and situps and whatnot...
//Lilita Luv <3
I ate an egg and milk.. lots of milk.. I feel a little full and naucious, it's so easy to get full when eating eggs, like it gets stuck halfway down to your stomach.
Today i'm gonna go into the big city near us, woohoo! My cellphone needs to be locked up, so i'm gonna try to get that fixed, or I won't have a cellphone for a longass while. Which would cause massive anger and massive destruction of the Telia store. Yup. Yah.
I started to add some more things to my workout, just a little at a time tho, so I don't get sick of it, I added like 10 more situps.. but not regular, they bore me, plus, it looks wierd after only doing regular, like Fergie's stomach, like the middle part sticks out from the muscles being toned, but the rest isn't.. And I wanna go for completley flat.
/Lillita Luv <3
----------------------
Update;
Lunch;
2 bananas
1 blueberry/raspberry smoothie
Dinner;
150 g tomatoe/mozarella pie
and the regular 3 km running and situps and whatnot...
//Lilita Luv <3
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