I woke up this saturdaymorning....

Feeling Ok, I woke up like 7:30 AM which isn't bad for me, I didn't even need wakeup call, so far I had 2 soft sandwiches (Thank nature I can eat again!) and a glass of milk. I have to be at rehersals at 10 tho, so I only have like an hour left.. So mean, I want a nice quiet weekend of sleeping and jogging to Cradle of Filth, lol. But today is gonna be good, our makeup artist (she also creates ideas for our props and such) is gonna try some makeups on me, see which'll fit my character the best, it'll be fun. And doing my monolouge, I know the whole text now, it feels good. I hope i'll do good, of course I can't compete with my full actor brother or classmates, but I can do something good anyway, our director like my take of the text and yesterday one of our choreographers told me I have a better energy to me than before. I think it's the jogging, it sooths me and I feel better, also I put a more positive outlook on life.

I think i'm gonna post a thinspo pic just for the hell of it, making sure I really go out running tomorrow, since I can't today... And I won't be able to run all next week, AAAH! It's the premiere week which means rehersals 8 in the morning to 8 in the eve. But i'll just have to make sure to not eat so much like I do now. a little less does a lot for me, but never not eat at all, always eat a little to keep the metabolism up! The funny thing is, well, a person with anorexia, sure, they'll drop in weight, but they'd drop even faster if they actually ate and ate tiny meals, lol. But anorexia isn't a weightlossplan, it's a disease. I don't belive that much in pro-ana. I don't think it'll help much but in giving you heartdiseases so you can die earlier.

My fave pic <3

I didn't buy candy, I was just SO close to, but I thought of how proud I could be for resisting. Why do I need something extra over my food intake? I don't, but the cheater I am, I do have diet cola, but it's ok, I mean, less cals than low fat milk, lol. I just hope mum won't buy anything more, she bought chips, and I really REALLY don't want to eat them, I can't let myself do that. So I won't. I will be strong, if I can go this weekend without eating them, i'm gonna be very proud. I <3 my diet cola tho.. I love, love, love it <3 And I love some people, but let's not go there ;) They are.. just for me. Nobody else come near or I'll bite ;)

/Lillita Luv <3